This Isn’t the Story of Us

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If you had never moved to New York, do you think you and Mark would still have met? Bridget, a good friend, had once asked me this question.

 No, of course not. I had replied, and I had meant it. If asked today, I’d still mean it.

She wants to believe in fate. Kismet. Soul mates. The idea that two people meant to be together will find each other. No matter what.

I don’t believe in this nonsense. I told her I’d have found someone else. Proximity is way more responsible for love than the quantifiable illusion of destiny.

So.

This isn’t the story of how we met. Mark and I.

It isn’t a love story that began with a silly speed-dating event. We never had our first date at that dive bar.

I never felt the undeniable pangs of falling love too soon. Or how I denied it. How I was skittish to find myself getting more tangled in his life.

Or how I could tell how much he loved me without him even having to say it. How he adored me in the beginning up until almost the end. But there is always an end, isn’t there?

It’s not the story of how our lives mingled together.

Or how his friends became my friends. My friends grew to be his.

It’s not the story of how I thought we had the kind of relationship that would last. The kind of relationship people should be jealous of. The kind most people didn’t have.

It’s certainly not about how it ended. Horribly. Cruelly. Broken into pieces.

Nor is it even the story of how he came back one day, spouting words of how he’d changed and how he didn’t quite know how to let me go.

Or even how I agreed to give us another chance only to find out that nothing really changes.

This is the tale of two people and the choices that they make. Choices that lead people away from each other rather than toward each other.

I mean…does anyone really believe we still might have met? Despite taking different paths in life?

Sure. Anything is possible. At our core, our personalities would have been similar. Our interests, similar. So yeah, it’s possible. Probable, though?

Yet as we stumbled. As we teetered and blundered through a chance to reunite in spite of our very real-life complicated situation, I decided to look at our stories. Apart. Where would we be? Who would we be? Who would we love and who would love us?

This isn’t the story of us. This is the story of them.

Stay turned for Chapter 1: The Night We Never Met—Meg

Update

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Last year, I didn’t write as much as I wanted. :sad face: Maybe I wasn’t motivated. Maybe I just had too much happening in my life. Maybe I simply needed a break to regroup. I’ve started again. And while I’m still working on my adult novels, I also recently began a YA novel and a book to be published in serial form: This Isn’t the Story of Us. 

I’ve decided to post periodically This Isn’t the Story of Us chapters. They will be drafts. Not perfectly edited, but more of an expression of what if and creative exercise. The first installment will post today.

“No one can tell your story, so tell it yourself. No one can write your story, so write it yourself.” – Unknown

July Writing Roundup!

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imagesIt has been a very long time since I’ve taken the time to write a post, and I’m sorry about that. Time got away from me this spring but I’ve made more of an effort to get my writing back on track this summer. I wrote a short story, and now I’m doing research for a kids book about barn owls that I’m pegged to write for the children’s publishing house I work for by day. (Side note: did you know that barn owls have three eyelids? One for blinking, one for sleeping and one for cleaning/protecting their eyes!)

My goals for the next couple of months are simple. Write the children’s book, revise my short story and submit for publication, and then start incorporating comments from agents into my first book. Longer term, I want to have the first book, The Fly Tower, back in the hands of prospective agents by the end of the year. I also want to revise the sequel. I finished the first draft in February and it has made itself a lonely home on my laptop. Also, my boyfriend hosts a monthly erotic live reading, and there will be a write your own month later this year or early 2016. I failed to write a story for the first call, but I have my plot in mind now and plan to have something ready for the next one.

Wish me luck! Expect to start seeing my blog posts on a consistent basis again too!

The “I might be obsessed with floral dresses” March Want List

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Hi all! It’s been a long, long time since I put together a want list. Too long in fact. I’m so sorry about that! I plan to start posting again every month.

Currently, I am coveting floral print on EVERYTHING! Still most of my focus tends to narrow on dresses so I’ve put together some of my favorites for Spring.

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Photo credits (top left to bottom right): polyvore.com; ladyvlondon.com; elle.com; lulus.com; lolobu.com; anthropologie.com

February Writing Roundup!

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The Elephant Hotel rough draft is complete! Champagne corks popping! Fireworks exploding! Etc. Etc. Etc.

It feels so amazing to have the second manuscript finished. The only thing better would be if I had the first book in the hands of an agent, or even better yet, a publisher. So before I edit (and edit and edit) book two, I will be spending time working on my first book, The Fly Tower. I received some great comments from agents so I plan to put their suggestions to good use and then start querying again. 

No work for me tonight though. I plan to crack open a bottle of wine and celebrate.

 

January Writing Roundup!

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My life has been a whirlwind since I last took note of my writing progress. The holidays happened so I fell quite behind. Yet even in early January, I was optimistic about a rebound. It didn’t happen. The reason is a good one though. I have been promoted to the Director of Marketing at Bearport Publishing! I’m super excited AND super busy! So alas with a big sigh, I’ve only managed to write one additional chapter. I have smaller goals for the next month while I continue to transition to my new job role. Hopefully in a couple of months, I’ll be ready to return to my regular writing pace.

Goals for the next 4 weeks:

–Write one chapter a week to complete The Elephant Hotel by 2/28
–Work on a short story submission

Reading Goal Roundup and My Top Books/Series of 2014

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2014 is over, and while I didn’t succeed in reading 100 books this year, I did read twice as many as last year (65 vs 32). Also, I did read some great nonfiction as well as find some new series to obsess over.

I’ve cleaned off my digital bookshelf to make room for shiny new books. Also, in short order, I’ll be sending out a post about upcoming book releases that I’m excited to read. 🙂

Here’s a recap of what I read in 2014.

  • A Study in Silks (Baskerville Affair #1) by Emma Jane Holloway
  • Caliban’s War (Expanse #2) by James S. A. Corey
  • Up from the Grave (Night Huntress conclusion) by Jeaniene Frost
  • Burn (Pure #3) by Julianna Baggott
  • Abaddon’s Gate (Expanse #3) by James S.A. Corey
  • Dawn’s Early Light (A Ministry of Peculiar Occurrences #3) by Pip Ballantine and Tee Morris
  • Magic Breaks (Kate Daniels #7) by Ilona Andrews (plus a reread of the first 6 books)
  • Boy, Snow, Bird by Helen Oyeyemi
  • Frog Music by Emma Donoghue
  • A Study in Darkness (Baskerville Affair #2) by Emma Jane Holloway
  • A Study in Ashes (Baskerville Affair #3) by Emma Jane Holloway
  • A Conspiracy of Alchemists (Chronicles of Light and Shadow #1) by Liesel Schwarz
  • A Clockwork Heart (Chronicles of Light and Shadow #2) by Liesel Schwarz
  • The Graveyard Game (Company #4) by Kage Baker
  • The Life of the World to Come (Company #5) by Kage Baker
  • The Sorcery Code (Sorcery Code #1) by Dima Zales and Anna Zaires
  • Talented (Talented Saga #1) by Sophie Davis
  • Skyship Academy: The Pearl Wars by Nick James
  • The Girl with the Windup Heart (The Steampunk Chronicles #4) by Kady Cross
  • The Blackhouse  by Peter May
  • The Giver by Lois Lowry
  • Balanced on a Blade’s Edge (Dragon Blood #1) by Lindsay Buroker
  • Fortune’s Pawn (Paradox #1) by Rachel Bach
  • Honor’s Knight (Paradox #2) by Rachel Bach
  • Heaven’s Queen (Paradox #3) by Rachel Bach
  • Claimed (Flash Gold #4) Lindsay Buroker
  • A Lady of Spirit (Magnificent Devices #6) by Shelley Adina
  • Ruin and Rising (The Grisha Trilogy #3) by Leigh Bardugo
  • Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn
  • The Astronaut Wives Club by Lily Koppel
  • The Race Underground: Boston, New York, and the Incredible Rivalry That Built America’s First Subway by Doug Most
  • Cibola Burn (Expanse #4) by James S.A. Corey
  • The Immortal Crown (Age of X #2) by Richelle Mead
  • Caged (Talented Saga #2) by Sophie Davis
  • The Secret Place by Tana French
  • Hunted (Talented Sage #3) by Sophie Davis
  • The Book of Life (All Souls Triology # 3) by Deborah Harkness
  • Blood Rights by Kristen Painter
  • Archetype by M.D. Waters
  • Prototype by M.D. Waters
  • Sisters’ Fate (The Cahill Witch Chronicles #3) by Jessica Spotswood
  • The Lewis Man by Peter May
  • The Infinite Sea (The Fifth Wave #2) by Rick Yancy
  • Bad Feminist by Roxane Gay
  • Burn for Me (Hidden Legacy #1) by Ilona Andrews
  • The Winter Long (October Daye #8) by Seanan McGuire
  • Gossamer Wing (Steam and Seduction #1) by Delphine Dryden
  • The Bone Clocks by David Mitchell
  • Disenchantment & Co. (Disenchantment & Co. #1) by Lynn Viehl
  • The Clockwork Wolf (Disenchantment & Co. #2) by Lynn Viehl
  • Annihilation (Southern Reach Trilogy #1) by Jeff VanderMeer
  • Authority (Southern Reach Trilogy #2) by Jeff VanderMeer
  • Acceptance (Southern Reach Trilogy #3) by Jeff VanderMeer
  • The Clockwork Dagger (Clockwork Dagger #1) by Beth Cato
  • Sky Pirates (Chronicles of Light and Shadow #3) by Liesel Schwarz
  • Far Orbit Anthology by World Weaver Press
  • The Atlantis Gene (The Origin Mystery #1) by A.G. Riddle
  • Waistcoats & Weaponry (Finishing School #3) by Gail Carriger

Top Books/Series:

Archetype and Prototype by M.D. Waters

Burn for Me (Hidden Legacy #1) by Ilona Andrews

The Winter Long (October Daye #8) by Seanan McGuire

Paradox series by Rachel Bach

Magic Breaks (Kate Daniels #7) by Ilona Andrews

Dawn’s Early Light (A Ministry of Peculiar Occurrences #3) by Pip Ballantine and Tee Morris